Okay, I am officially losing it.
Apr. 9th, 2004 01:17 pmSeriously. I spent an hour driving around in the car, not knowing where I was going. Called Di to tell her something (completely forgot what it was while I was on hold) and mentioned to her that I was driving, and she talked me into coming home. Got home and spent the last half hour just crying. Sitting here with tears rolling down my face. I can't do this shit anymore. I'm not sleeping, I can't eat without puking less than an hour later, and just the *thought* of going to work makes me physically ill. I'm stressed to the point that Mia has to spend most of the day either out back or locked out of my room because I'm scared to death of snapping on her. I've asked several times to be switched back to days, but they don't listen, and they're so fucked up over there that I got my head ripped off at 2am because someone hasn't been doing their job and an O/C guy was left in the rotation when he was suppossed to be taken out over a month ago because he's on medical leave due to the fact that he has leukemia. I've sunk so low as to apply at fucking McDonalds just to get the hell out of this place. I haven't slept all day, can't sleep and I'm out of the allergy meds that knock me out so I can't go to sleep. And right now, I'm fighting the urge to get back in the fucking car and just *drive* to god knows where. I'm so tired.
