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Sep. 15th, 2017 01:00 amI'm tired.
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May. 16th, 2017 09:50 pmI'm really hating on life right now. It's been almost seven months without a job. Almost a year since I lost Mia.
I need a job. I need out of this house and into a place of my own. I want a puppy because after fifteen years with a dog running around, I'm finally, -finally- to start feeling lost without one.
I'm just hitting that brick wall where it feels like I've been beating the dead horse for so long that I've started hitting the dirt under it and it's frustrating. There's things I need, and things I want to do, and I can't. I don't have the money, and Di is already stretched thin providing for both of us and she's already working overtime and working on her days off.
To make things worse, this depression is NOT getting better. I'm in a room with no fucking windows (the dinky little 12 inch by 24 inch skylight does not count) and I have to walk all the way to the other end of the house for the bathroom. I have very little of my stuff here, just two small totes, my desktop computer, and maybe 1/3rd of my clothes. Everything else is still in the storage unit back in Iowa with our furniture. So, all my books, my altar stuff, my movies, everything from Mia and Illusion except their ashes and the pictures on the computer, my dead dolls, just... everything. My life is in a storage unit and I can't get to it.
Yeah, I'll stop whining now.
I need a job. I need out of this house and into a place of my own. I want a puppy because after fifteen years with a dog running around, I'm finally, -finally- to start feeling lost without one.
I'm just hitting that brick wall where it feels like I've been beating the dead horse for so long that I've started hitting the dirt under it and it's frustrating. There's things I need, and things I want to do, and I can't. I don't have the money, and Di is already stretched thin providing for both of us and she's already working overtime and working on her days off.
To make things worse, this depression is NOT getting better. I'm in a room with no fucking windows (the dinky little 12 inch by 24 inch skylight does not count) and I have to walk all the way to the other end of the house for the bathroom. I have very little of my stuff here, just two small totes, my desktop computer, and maybe 1/3rd of my clothes. Everything else is still in the storage unit back in Iowa with our furniture. So, all my books, my altar stuff, my movies, everything from Mia and Illusion except their ashes and the pictures on the computer, my dead dolls, just... everything. My life is in a storage unit and I can't get to it.
Yeah, I'll stop whining now.
I wish I was making that shit up. The Sawmill Fire here in Southern Arizona has already burned over 47,000 acres, and is still burning. This is a current map of the fire. (Warning, it's a bit big.) Tucson is northwest of the fire by about 40 miles.
This fire was started by an off-duty Border Patrol Agent, who was shooting at explosive targets, during a red flag warning day. According to the National Weather Service, "A Red Flag Warning means that critical fire weather conditions are either occurring or are imminent. A combination of strong winds and low relative humidities can contribute to extreme fire behavior." Alerts like this have been going out for weeks. Yes, this fool tried to put it out and immediately called 911, but he has ultimately lost his job. People and animals, many of them livestock and horses because that is ranch country, have been displaced. An entire town has been evacuated and two others are on pre-evacuation notice.
There are easier, and less costly ways to quit one's job.
And a job is something I'm still looking for. I've been without one since just before Halloween. I moved to Arizona in February after finding out that a)my rent was going up in my house and there was no way I was going to afford it on my own, and b) my brother was planning to move in with his girlfriend, and there was no way I was living with them and five kids, three of which are under the age of seven. So I moved to Tucson with my mother, which I had been planning on anyway, but just a lot sooner than I had planned, and without any money to float me.
Which, is hard. She's paying for everything (Yay for Obamacare, I at least have medical right now.), but it's still hard that she's covering my portion of rent and utilities and buying food and... I've put in close to sixty job apps, and only managed to get two interviews. This isn't counting the crap I was going through back in Iowa when I moved in with my brother and she was paying for my stuff then too.
Finding a job was a lot easier six years ago.
This fire was started by an off-duty Border Patrol Agent, who was shooting at explosive targets, during a red flag warning day. According to the National Weather Service, "A Red Flag Warning means that critical fire weather conditions are either occurring or are imminent. A combination of strong winds and low relative humidities can contribute to extreme fire behavior." Alerts like this have been going out for weeks. Yes, this fool tried to put it out and immediately called 911, but he has ultimately lost his job. People and animals, many of them livestock and horses because that is ranch country, have been displaced. An entire town has been evacuated and two others are on pre-evacuation notice.
There are easier, and less costly ways to quit one's job.
And a job is something I'm still looking for. I've been without one since just before Halloween. I moved to Arizona in February after finding out that a)my rent was going up in my house and there was no way I was going to afford it on my own, and b) my brother was planning to move in with his girlfriend, and there was no way I was living with them and five kids, three of which are under the age of seven. So I moved to Tucson with my mother, which I had been planning on anyway, but just a lot sooner than I had planned, and without any money to float me.
Which, is hard. She's paying for everything (Yay for Obamacare, I at least have medical right now.), but it's still hard that she's covering my portion of rent and utilities and buying food and... I've put in close to sixty job apps, and only managed to get two interviews. This isn't counting the crap I was going through back in Iowa when I moved in with my brother and she was paying for my stuff then too.
Finding a job was a lot easier six years ago.
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Apr. 5th, 2017 02:03 amAlright then, I have removed nearly everyone from my IJ flist, don't know why most of them were still on there since I didn't talk to any of them. Of course, I barely talk to anyone anymore.
Redid this journal AND my IJ journal. And it is now 2am, so I should go to bed instead of giving in to this fun little depression spiral. Because it will just lead to insomnia and migraines if I do. Fun for all, yay.
Redid this journal AND my IJ journal. And it is now 2am, so I should go to bed instead of giving in to this fun little depression spiral. Because it will just lead to insomnia and migraines if I do. Fun for all, yay.
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Apr. 4th, 2017 09:12 pmIn light of the new TOS on Livejournal, and the crap it include, and considering most of the stuff I post on my fic journal when I do write, and the stuff I post when I do post, I have backed up and deleted ALL of my LJ journals. This includes my fanfic journal and all RP journals that had not been deleted and purged.
Most of them hadn't been updated in over 5 years, but better safe than sorry, right?
Thankfully I had already imported my personal and fanfic journals over here to DW, so no hassle there.
I guess it might be time to start using this thing again.
Most of them hadn't been updated in over 5 years, but better safe than sorry, right?
Thankfully I had already imported my personal and fanfic journals over here to DW, so no hassle there.
I guess it might be time to start using this thing again.
...my cards are spooky.
Feb. 12th, 2012 09:23 pmAnd not because they're an original Vertigo Tarot set. It's because I haven't read them in forever, and I just did a quick 'Past Present Future' and daily card reading. It's a little freaky sometimes.
Past - Eight of Pentacles, reversed.
Present - Eight of Cups, reversed.
Future - Page of Pentacles.
Daily - Hermit, reversed.
I'm sure those of you who know your cards understand what those mean. Those that don't... well, they're just dead on atm, and fit my emotions lately.
Past - Eight of Pentacles, reversed.
Present - Eight of Cups, reversed.
Future - Page of Pentacles.
Daily - Hermit, reversed.
I'm sure those of you who know your cards understand what those mean. Those that don't... well, they're just dead on atm, and fit my emotions lately.
This happened in AIM
Jan. 22nd, 2012 04:16 amSo, I was talking with Relly in AIM about a fic I was reading...
Me: This actually came out of someone's brain. And all I can think? Is it's STILL better than Twilight.
Relly: dsfalksdjf;aslkdfja;sdf HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
Me: This is my new criteria:
Does it contain uterus chewing?
Does an adult fall in romantic love with a newborn?
Does it contain sparkly creatures?
Is it written by Cassie Claire?
Relly: zvclaksdfasldkfa;elkfaw;eofiwe;flwkeacldckmdsdl;kfasdfasdf
Me: If it contains one: Mock
If it contains more than one: Avoid
If it contains all four: Prepare for zombies.
Relly: So what you're saying is, we need to keep Cassie Claire from plagairizing the Twilight series.
Me: YES!
Me: This actually came out of someone's brain. And all I can think? Is it's STILL better than Twilight.
Relly: dsfalksdjf;aslkdfja;sdf HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
Me: This is my new criteria:
Does it contain uterus chewing?
Does an adult fall in romantic love with a newborn?
Does it contain sparkly creatures?
Is it written by Cassie Claire?
Relly: zvclaksdfasldkfa;elkfaw;eofiwe;flwkeacldckmdsdl;kfasdfasdf
Me: If it contains one: Mock
If it contains more than one: Avoid
If it contains all four: Prepare for zombies.
Relly: So what you're saying is, we need to keep Cassie Claire from plagairizing the Twilight series.
Me: YES!
State of Kym
Jan. 8th, 2012 11:58 pmSo. The stuff with LJ. The migration of people to DW.
It just made me realize, I don't post to EITHER of them anymore. I go there to read what people on my flists do, and to read fic on comms, and to rp.
That's it.
So, I've made a new resolution. I'm going to start posting on my blog at least once a week. I Have Seen the White City is over there, that is where I will be posting my stuff. I will cross-post a link to all new blog posts on DW and LJ. No more money going to LJ, and that way I don't feel guilty for not posting anything.
Here's the latest from me.
It just made me realize, I don't post to EITHER of them anymore. I go there to read what people on my flists do, and to read fic on comms, and to rp.
That's it.
So, I've made a new resolution. I'm going to start posting on my blog at least once a week. I Have Seen the White City is over there, that is where I will be posting my stuff. I will cross-post a link to all new blog posts on DW and LJ. No more money going to LJ, and that way I don't feel guilty for not posting anything.
Here's the latest from me.
I can't with the American government.
Nov. 17th, 2011 11:02 amOriginally posted by ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
musique_style at I can't with the American government.
musique_style at I can't with the American government.This post is public; feel free to link people to it, pass it around, etc etc etc.
To read more about this Bill, there's a full article over on Oh No They Didn't-Political, which can be found here.
If you can, please contact your House Representative. If you don't know their number, there's a page on Tumblr that will connect you to them. There's also a link entitled, "Email them", where you can sign the petition.
DemandProgress.org had a petition going, but they turned it in to Congress yesterday--while standing alongside Congressmembers Zoe Lofgren and Darrell Issa... with well over 500,000 signatures.
This bill is holding hearings today. Do you realize what will happen if this passes? Take a second and think about what this means to you on a national level; on a personal level; on an interpersonal...hell, even in regards to something like a fandom.. This bill is big, guys. :(
Edit 11/16; 5:15PM: If this Bill passes, here are some sites that could potentially be blocked off to the American people:
-Facebook
-Livejournal
-Twitter
-The Pirate Bay
-Megaupload
-Megavideo
-Mediafire
-Wordpress
-Almost any forum site
-Tumblr
...Well, that's nice. :|
To read more about this Bill, there's a full article over on Oh No They Didn't-Political, which can be found here.
If you can, please contact your House Representative. If you don't know their number, there's a page on Tumblr that will connect you to them. There's also a link entitled, "Email them", where you can sign the petition.
DemandProgress.org had a petition going, but they turned it in to Congress yesterday--while standing alongside Congressmembers Zoe Lofgren and Darrell Issa... with well over 500,000 signatures.
This bill is holding hearings today. Do you realize what will happen if this passes? Take a second and think about what this means to you on a national level; on a personal level; on an interpersonal...hell, even in regards to something like a fandom.. This bill is big, guys. :(
Edit 11/16; 5:15PM: If this Bill passes, here are some sites that could potentially be blocked off to the American people:
-Livejournal
-The Pirate Bay
-Megaupload
-Megavideo
-Mediafire
-Wordpress
-Almost any forum site
-Tumblr
...Well, that's nice. :|
Mississippi Personhood Amendment
Oct. 11th, 2011 07:38 pmOriginally posted by gabrielleabelle at Mississippi Personhood Amendment
gabrielleabelle at Mississippi Personhood AmendmentOkay, so I don't usually do this, but this is an issue near and dear to me and this is getting very little no attention in the mainstream media.
Mississippi is voting on November 8th on whether to pass Amendment 26, the "Personhood Amendment". This amendment would grant fertilized eggs and fetuses personhood status.
Putting aside the contentious issue of abortion, this would effectively outlaw birth control and criminalize women who have miscarriages. This is not a good thing.
Jackson Women's Health Organization is the only place women can get abortions in the entire state, and they are trying to launch a grassroots movement against this amendment. This doesn't just apply to Mississippi, though, as Personhood USA, the group that introduced this amendment, is trying to introduce identical amendments in all 50 states.
What's more, in Mississippi, this amendment is expected to pass. It even has Mississippi Democrats, including the Attorney General, Jim Hood, backing it.
The reason I'm posting this here is because I made a meager donation to the Jackson Women's Health Organization this morning, and I received a personal email back hours later - on a Sunday - thanking me and noting that I'm one of the first "outside" people to contribute.
So if you sometimes pass on political action because you figure that enough other people will do something to make a difference, make an exception on this one. My RSS reader is near silent on this amendment. I only found out about it through a feminist blog. The mainstream media is not reporting on it.
If there is ever a time to donate or send a letter in protest, this would be it.
What to do?
- Read up on it. Wake Up, Mississippi is the home of the grassroots effort to fight this amendment. Daily Kos also has a thorough story on it.
- If you can afford it, you can donate at the site's link.
- You can contact the Democratic National Committee to see why more of our representatives aren't speaking out against this.
- Like this Facebook page to help spread awareness.
Mississippi is voting on November 8th on whether to pass Amendment 26, the "Personhood Amendment". This amendment would grant fertilized eggs and fetuses personhood status.
Putting aside the contentious issue of abortion, this would effectively outlaw birth control and criminalize women who have miscarriages. This is not a good thing.
Jackson Women's Health Organization is the only place women can get abortions in the entire state, and they are trying to launch a grassroots movement against this amendment. This doesn't just apply to Mississippi, though, as Personhood USA, the group that introduced this amendment, is trying to introduce identical amendments in all 50 states.
What's more, in Mississippi, this amendment is expected to pass. It even has Mississippi Democrats, including the Attorney General, Jim Hood, backing it.
The reason I'm posting this here is because I made a meager donation to the Jackson Women's Health Organization this morning, and I received a personal email back hours later - on a Sunday - thanking me and noting that I'm one of the first "outside" people to contribute.
So if you sometimes pass on political action because you figure that enough other people will do something to make a difference, make an exception on this one. My RSS reader is near silent on this amendment. I only found out about it through a feminist blog. The mainstream media is not reporting on it.
If there is ever a time to donate or send a letter in protest, this would be it.
What to do?
- Read up on it. Wake Up, Mississippi is the home of the grassroots effort to fight this amendment. Daily Kos also has a thorough story on it.
- If you can afford it, you can donate at the site's link.
- You can contact the Democratic National Committee to see why more of our representatives aren't speaking out against this.
- Like this Facebook page to help spread awareness.
Originally posted by heeroluva at "Suspicious comments" and "Spam comments": LJ decision to 'block' spam is a big FAIL!
heeroluva at "Suspicious comments" and "Spam comments": LJ decision to 'block' spam is a big FAIL!So I've been noticing in both my own journal and communities that I haven't been able to see some comments even thought it says there are more comments there than are actually showing up. Instead I'm getting a place holder that says (Spam comment) or (Suspicious comment).
Why are these showing up like this you may ask? In their rush to fight spam LJ has created a new filter that're AUTOMATICALLY TURNED ON in ALL journals and communities, which screens comments that are made with 'suspicious links' ie links that are not on their safe whitelist, so pretty much the majority of the internet. There is no noted way to add to the 'whitelist'.
What really gets me is that they didn't inform people that they were doing this until a week after it was done and that it was automatically turned on.
So how do I turn it off you might ask.
That's simple. Go to your Settings, click on the Privacy tab, and half way down where it says Spam Protection uncheck the box next to "Comments containing a link to a non-whitelisted domain will be marked as spam and moved to a special section." This applies to both personal journal and communities and the opinion has to be manually changed in each one.
While I understand how this could be a good idea, I think they went about it in a very backhanded way, and have implemented it poorly. There was no message to anyone that the link has been screened. It's automatically done. This went on for over a week before they said anything about it. There is still nothing in the FAQs about it even. The only way I found out about this way going through the support pages where people were reporting similar issues.
Please share this!
ETA: This links really illustrates the problems.
Why are these showing up like this you may ask? In their rush to fight spam LJ has created a new filter that're AUTOMATICALLY TURNED ON in ALL journals and communities, which screens comments that are made with 'suspicious links' ie links that are not on their safe whitelist, so pretty much the majority of the internet. There is no noted way to add to the 'whitelist'.
What really gets me is that they didn't inform people that they were doing this until a week after it was done and that it was automatically turned on.
So how do I turn it off you might ask.
That's simple. Go to your Settings, click on the Privacy tab, and half way down where it says Spam Protection uncheck the box next to "Comments containing a link to a non-whitelisted domain will be marked as spam and moved to a special section." This applies to both personal journal and communities and the opinion has to be manually changed in each one.
While I understand how this could be a good idea, I think they went about it in a very backhanded way, and have implemented it poorly. There was no message to anyone that the link has been screened. It's automatically done. This went on for over a week before they said anything about it. There is still nothing in the FAQs about it even. The only way I found out about this way going through the support pages where people were reporting similar issues.
Please share this!
ETA: This links really illustrates the problems.
Further info on the LJ DDoS attacks
Apr. 9th, 2011 05:07 pmOriginally posted by deathpixie at Further info on the LJ DDoS attacks
deathpixie at Further info on the LJ DDoS attacksGrabbed from ![[info]](https://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=2)
alasdair
synecdochic: LiveJournal’s DDoS and Russian Politics
This is an excellent round up of the problems that have plagued LJ of late, which are, in turn an interesting insight into the implications of running something that truly is a global service. The short version: if you are an English language user who is tempted to complain about LJ's recent down time, you should probably shut the fuck up before you embarrass the rest of us. And if you are an English language user who isn't actually *paying* for the service, and you're tempted to complain, please make do so a long, long way away from me, because I'd hate to have to beat you with something heavy.
As annoying as the downtime has been, it has served to bring to light the "other half" of LJ's user base in Russia, and to explain the importance of the journal platform to freedom of speech in that country. Enough so there are those who would see that platform go down. It really makes you think about the difference perspective makes. For us, LJ is a place we keep up with our friends, do memes, roleplay, write. For Russia, it's the place where people get a chance to know the truth of what's going on in the country and for ordinary people to have a voice.
Certainly something to think about, any way.
alasdairsynecdochic: LiveJournal’s DDoS and Russian Politics
This is an excellent round up of the problems that have plagued LJ of late, which are, in turn an interesting insight into the implications of running something that truly is a global service. The short version: if you are an English language user who is tempted to complain about LJ's recent down time, you should probably shut the fuck up before you embarrass the rest of us. And if you are an English language user who isn't actually *paying* for the service, and you're tempted to complain, please make do so a long, long way away from me, because I'd hate to have to beat you with something heavy.
As annoying as the downtime has been, it has served to bring to light the "other half" of LJ's user base in Russia, and to explain the importance of the journal platform to freedom of speech in that country. Enough so there are those who would see that platform go down. It really makes you think about the difference perspective makes. For us, LJ is a place we keep up with our friends, do memes, roleplay, write. For Russia, it's the place where people get a chance to know the truth of what's going on in the country and for ordinary people to have a voice.
Certainly something to think about, any way.
I had a productive weekend!
Apr. 3rd, 2011 11:24 pmSort of. Got all my homework done with... 50 minutes to spare.
Saturday though, went to Munch. Got my pretty dragon's tongue flogger. :D
Also, got some pretties done. I need to raid the roommate's phone for the other pics, the less blurry ones, but here are two on my tumblr.
Saturday though, went to Munch. Got my pretty dragon's tongue flogger. :D
Also, got some pretties done. I need to raid the roommate's phone for the other pics, the less blurry ones, but here are two on my tumblr.
It's that time again.
Mar. 9th, 2011 09:28 amI haven't been posting as much anywhere besides Twitter lately. Part of that is due to lack of a paid journal, which will change this week.
I think it is time to completely revamp this journal. New layout, new icons, the works. Just, change everything out, lock a bunch of stuff down... yeah, it's needed.
And then I'll start posting again.
I think it is time to completely revamp this journal. New layout, new icons, the works. Just, change everything out, lock a bunch of stuff down... yeah, it's needed.
And then I'll start posting again.
