Okay, I am officially losing it.

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Seriously. I spent an hour driving around in the car, not knowing where I was going. Called Di to tell her something (completely forgot what it was while I was on hold) and mentioned to her that I was driving, and she talked me into coming home. Got home and spent the last half hour just crying. Sitting here with tears rolling down my face. I can't do this shit anymore. I'm not sleeping, I can't eat without puking less than an hour later, and just the *thought* of going to work makes me physically ill. I'm stressed to the point that Mia has to spend most of the day either out back or locked out of my room because I'm scared to death of snapping on her. I've asked several times to be switched back to days, but they don't listen, and they're so fucked up over there that I got my head ripped off at 2am because someone hasn't been doing their job and an O/C guy was left in the rotation when he was suppossed to be taken out over a month ago because he's on medical leave due to the fact that he has leukemia. I've sunk so low as to apply at fucking McDonalds just to get the hell out of this place. I haven't slept all day, can't sleep and I'm out of the allergy meds that knock me out so I can't go to sleep. And right now, I'm fighting the urge to get back in the fucking car and just *drive* to god knows where. I'm so tired.

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I'm a friend of Deborak and on Xanga under The_Wayne. Who knows, I might follow Deb here when she flees Xanga which I expect to happen by the end of summer if not within a month.

All I have to say is keep it together. I've been where you are at various times recently. I was unemployed for 2 1/2 years and in a sucky relationship (providing me with no soul support) at the same time. But it has changed, I'm employed, and I've got a wonderful girlfriend (who unfortunately is out of state so I can't see her nearly as often as I'd like.)

Me, I'd suggest spending time at the zoo. I was in Omaha 3 years ago and was very impressed, particularly at the rain forest and the parrots they have their. I did a lot of shooting with my Eos system and my 300mm, got some great shots.

I can definitely understand being down in Omaha, I don't think I could handle the lack of sunshine (I'm in Phoenix). Maybe you need a place a little less snowy with a lot more sunshine.

Re: You don't know me but...

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*g* Finally, someone who understands Omaha. Yeah, HDZ is my refuge. Especially since they opened the Desert dome and the new Gorilla complex. That day though, I didn't have my new zoo pass yet, and it was bad all around. As for moving, I'm working on it!