leaveoutalltherest | (no subject) (Reply)

The phone was shut off, probably won't be back on until sometime next week, if then. Don't know how long the internet will last. Job I'm at just barely pays the loan payment on my car every month, leaving Di to pay everything else. Got behind on the phone bill because something had to give so she could pay lights and gas this next paycheck and rent the next. Still don't have my cellphone and probably won't for a while yet because while the check did clear and the last months bill was paid, the new one came through on the same day so now there's a balance again and until that gets paid, I can't get a new phone or renew my contract. Still haven't gotten my DC ticket, not sure how the hell I'm going to float that, the loan payment and everything else, because apparently the 'left over' balance at school is grant money and they don't give the left over amount to the students, it goes back to the grant office. Illusion is sick, have to borrow money from my aunt to take her to the mobile vet, not sure if he'll be able to do anything or if I'll have to take her into the regular vet. Of course, they'll want the $60 office fee up front, plus whatever they do in the office. Last time it was $250. The vet told me then that she'll have this all her life and there will be flareups, but when I called to get antibiotics for her, the vet I talked to was really snotty and nasty to me and said I had to bring her in and that 'there is a vaccine for this, you can take care of this, if you want to'. She was nasty and had me in tears, because the guy who checked her out before didn't say anything about a fucking vaccine and if he had, I would have paid the extra to get her the fucking shot. Losing it here, because I've put in apps for other jobs with more hours but it's kinda hard for them to call when I don't have fucking phone, which means no more money than what I have now. Fucking school, that extra left over from the grant would get us through until I got my loan check, but they won't do that and so now I get to sit here and fucking wonder what is going to come crashing down next because the last light bill from the old house was damn near $300 because we were running 2 a/cs plus the one from this month and the final gas bill and this months gas bill from this house and I don't know if Di is going to have enough and I'm so fucking tired and I just want to crawl in my car and drive away but I can't and I'm tired and I just want to give up but I -can't- and... gotta take Illusion to the vet and then go to work.